I wish I could apologize to anyone who ever previously told me about their infertility troubles because I feel like I didn’t have much compassion for women who were having trouble getting pregnant. At least, I never had ENOUGH compassion. That is until I faced the struggles myself. When we decided we wanted to start a family, we tried for 3 months, then got pregnant with Chase. No problemo!
So, of course I just assumed it would be smooth sailing the second time around. WRONG! We tried for several months, then I started to get a little worried. We tried for a few more months, then the worry increased. I started googling the dreaded word “infertility” and learned a lot…some good and some bad. I don’t know if it was too much information because sometimes ignorance is bliss. The more I learned about issues that can cause infertility and the more stories I read about other couples having troubles, the more freaked out I got that I was never going to get pregnant.
I really wanted to surprise Adam, so I put them in an envelope along with a letter thanking him for all of his support through all of the struggles we have had over the past few years. At the airport early the following morning, I gave him the envelope. He read the letter then looked at the “big brother” pictures and after taking a moment to let it resonate, in amazement, he said “HOW?” I laughed and cried tears of joy because I thought the exact same thing. How…after all these years and so much stress and so many tears? We will never know why. But we will forever be grateful.
|Proud big brother…FINALLY!|